3/2/09

Surgery time again. Sigh.

Tomorrow morning at the crack of dawn we head into the hospital for Q's second surgery. We have every reason to feel positive about this surgery, which will complete the closure of her lip, and if all goes well it will be considerably less invasive than the last round. Still, it's hard not to be nervous, and to feel a sense of guilt at betraying this little girl's trust once again. It's especially difficult when they're still too young to understand why they need to go through this kind of pain. She is an extremely self-confident girl and loves to look at herself in the mirror, and I doubt she'd understand, at this stage, that there is anything about her that needs to be "fixed". So it seems especially cruel, as gloriously happy and content as she is at this moment, to put her through another couple of weeks of discomfort.
For me, it's hard each time to say goodbye to the face I've come to love so intensely. I know she will still be the same girl with the same brilliant, drop-dead smile, and that I will quickly grow accustomed to the "new face", but each time I mourn a little for the way she looked before.
Sigh.
At any rate, wish us an easy journey this time around, and we'll see you when we're out of the hospital and back online.

ps - Thanks, Anne, for the guitar, which she LOVES! Here, she is playing it with both hands, flat on her lap like a dobro. I have a whole series of these pictures which I will post when I have time...in the course of this jam session, she played between her legs, over her head, and even held the guitar by the neck and played the strings with her toes. No, I'm not exaggerating. You'll be amazed. She is quite the creative musician.

24 comments:

Yoli said...

Maia, it is never easy. Sending healing thoughts to Q.

Maia said...

Oh, good luck to you all! May it be quick,easy,and over before you know it!

Jan said...

Hang in there, Maia. Here's wishing for a safe, successful, and uneventful surgery! QQ IS beautiful both Before, Before and After!!! Sending lots of love and hugs,
Jan, John & JIllian Rose

sarahthefantastic said...

Sending you lots of support and sympathetic energy. I worried about YY when she had hers and she didn't hold it against me at all. I'm sure QQ is equally gracious. xoxox...

Anonymous said...

Wish you all a quick journey home from the hospital and QQ to heal fast- sending good thoughts your way :)
shirley

Vivian M said...

Keeping you all in our thoughts and prayers and hoping QQ has a speedy recovery.

Virginia and Doug said...

I'll keep all three of you in my thoughts and prayers ((hugs))

Gin

monica said...

These brave little soldiers, our girls from China. She'll be strumming her new guitar in not time at all. Blessings, Monica

Mom-2-3 said...

xoxo we love you!

M@rgriet said...

Hey you guys, good luck tomorrow. Thinking of you! xxxx M.

Barbara said...

QQ will be wrapped up in my heart today.

Mom-of-Bean said...

I'm keeping all three of you in my prayers. There will be a sweet, wonderfully big and joyous smile at the end of this.

Margaret M said...

Thinking of you and QQ! I know how hard it is to wait. I hope QQ heals well and you are in my thoughts!

operationtigerlily said...

Thinking about QQ. Hope all goes well today....

Mamacita said...

Thinking of you both and your precious girl.

Stacie said...

wishing you and Q our best for a safe, quick recovery!

Carrie said...

My thoughts and prayers you all!

Amy said...

I will be thinking of you and saying prayers for your beautiful QQ tomorrow. I love your blog!

ThatGirl said...

She will have an easier time drinking and eating and all of those important things. Something tells me her new smile will be beautiful.

Lost and Found said...

We send you love, healing and an easy recovery for everyone. QQ never ceases to amaze us all. She's a trooper and is beautiful inside and out just like her family.

Cavatica said...

Thinking of you all and waiting anxiously for your next post.

Heather said...

I hope QQ is feeling better soon!

kris said...

love you guys and thinking of you, sending up prayers for QQ- and healing vibes for a quick recovery!

Nicole said...

Thinking of you!!!!! We'll be heading to the hospital tomorrow for Katelyn's MRI... meeting with the neurosurgeon next week to discuss detether surgery.
~Nicole http://gowerfam.blogspot.com